I keep telling the dog that the more she barks and as loud as she does I won’t cave in what she wanted, which is to get out of the room.

Do I have the right to say that when I myself do the same thing??? Even if it’s just to the dog…

I know why I am the way I am. I grew up fighting for what is right for me. My mom allowed me to make mistakes, yeah, but she never forgets the childish, brainless and erratic faults I made in the past. And she reminds me of this almost everyday she can. I expect I deserve such agony for I put this on myself. I did things to cause some grieves to myself with some help from those who care not to be forever in my life. But they didn’t put a gun to my head for me to do and make stupid decisions, as I did. I caused so much dilemma to myself that effected those who care enough to help me through all of it. But I know, I understand and I taught myself a lesson that I can never forget.

I accept the truth of what I have done and if I forever pay for all those that I did wrong, then I accept if for I deserve it all. I don’t expect to get away from everything I’ve done, I’ve done that before and it didn’t do me any good, so I don’t run from my problems any longer. I’ve changed. I’m different in a way that those who knows me less than a few years would not notice it. But I have and I’m glad that I’ve grown out of my idiocy.

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Ang bilis ng araw ngayon... Ngayon ko lang na notice na October na pala, yon calendario namin nasa September pa rin.  Hays it's almost Christmas, pero araw ng patay muna saka Thanksgiving.  Pero kahit san kami pumunta meron ng decoration ng Pasko, pati nga ang "BANDILA" news, binibilang na ang araw ng Pasko.  Hays... ang bilis ng panahon baka bukas pag-gising ko New Year na. 

Currently listening to "Masaya" By: Bamboo
Currently feeling reflective

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