{ posted by Iammyown.emmcee | 09:05 PM }
We're having a baby... "I'm tesbu."
Yeay!!!
Currently listening to "Rise" by: Solarcade
Currently reading The Lost Boy By: Dave Pelzer
Currently feeling tired
{ posted by Iammyown.emmcee | 10:14 PM }
Dang I'm old.
The three days celebration was a lot fun... Well actually 2 days and half. Picts should be posted as soon as I get some rest and time to post them.
It's still cold as ice. Freezing actually.
It's nice though, specially when you have someone to hug you at night when the temperature even gets lower than during the day. hehehe
The Bestie got me a "pregnancy test" for the joke present. It was clever but everyone is now calling and texting me if I have taken the test. It's funny. It's actually hilarious!!!
I think I'm going to wait another week to take it, maybe. I don't know yet. Or just leave it alone until next month or so. I really don't know. We'll see.
Currently listening to "Hula hoop" By: Alvin and the Chipmunks (I love them!!!)
Currently watching Friends Box set season 6, which I got for my bday:)
Currently feeling grateful
{ posted by Iammyown.emmcee | 07:26 PM }
It’s beginning to feel the same again. In a few hours I will be another year older than right at this moment. I planned a get together because that’s what I usually do this time of the year. At first it was fun and exciting, I mean it’s still exciting me a bit down in my happy emotions place but a dark ignoble air passes through me a few mins ago. Then one by one they started calling and canceling on this time of the year that I usually plan. It’s my birthday, but that’s besides the point. Because we don’t see each other for Christmas day, I thought as I do every year, it’ll be our moment to get together not only for my birthday but also for Christmas. We used to do this back in the day, before the moved to Florida and back here... but things I guess changed, and someone forgot to informed me of this changed.
It was like this last year, but last year I wasn’t really the planner nor the caller of everyone so I didn’t really know what and who was going. The Bestie planned it all for me and in 10 people who said they were going only us 4 made it. It felt sad.
I was hoping this year would be different, but it seems as though everyone is too busy. I understand, I do, but it's not a whole day that I'm asking for, only 2 hours or more to spare. Just so we can catch up on things that we didn't get a chance to talk about on the phone. anyway This would be the last year I would plan this thing.
The disappointments and the lost memories is what hurts more than anything.
It's a lost cause...
5 more hours and I’m a year older...
Currently listening to "I ran (so far away)" By: A Flock of Seagulls
Currently watching The Cosby show marathon... something to keep my spirits up.
Currently feeling cheerless
{ posted by Iammyown.emmcee | 06:57 AM }
It’s 7:43am and I’ve been awake for almost 2 hours now. It’s a change waking up this morning… besides that I almost never wake up before 8am, it’s bit of a change. It’s raining. Not like sporadically or ambon, it’s actually water droplets continually falling. The pool is almost overflowing kinda rain.
And I thought it never rained in Southern California…
Anyway I woke up to pee, but when I went back to bed a strange feeling came over me to check my girls. It was still dark out so I turn on the back porch light. And there she was, Nena, she was crying and whining. She usually wakes up this time and pee, just like me. I guess she saw what I did, so she got nervous. I went back in the room and grab my sweatshirt and told my hubby that the dogs are scared and wet. I quickly went outside and opened their door and grab Nena and their bed. I told Abbie to follow me, she did. When we got inside a rush of water from the pool came and made everything wet and cold. If I’ve waited any longer to get my girls they would have been soaked.
Anyway that was almost 2 hours ago. They’re sleeping now, on their bed inside our room. I don’t know who was scared more, me or Nena. They were both shivering like they’ve seen a ghost or something like it. Nena never seen rain so she didn’t know what to do, as far as her mom, Abbie has gone through rain, thunder and lightning, only difference is that, she experienced it being inside the house. I feel bad for my doggies. I wished they could stay in the house but I know Nena will still make a mess.
It’s cold and I should lay back down, but my mind is wandering now, so I don’t know if I would be able to. I’m still tired, I can tell caused my hands are not yet functioning properly.
I have to try to go back to sleep.
I like the rain, but I don’t like it when it frightens my doggies. But Cali needed this rain though. At least now things will be wet and watered. I just hope the car windows are all up!!! That would suck if it wasn't.
Oh, and the signal sucks right now… so I don’t even know when this will be posted on my blog.
And O'o, 2 more days and it'll be my Bday!!!
Currently listening to the droplets of rain
Currently feeling tired
{ posted by Iammyown.emmcee | 08:42 PM }
Wow, it's freaking cold today... actually FREEZING!!! Sobrang lamig, mygosh!!!
but...
In 4 days I'll be another year older than today!!! I can't wait!!!
P A R T Y!!!
C E L E B R A T I ON!!!
Y E A Y!!!
Currently listening to "Baliw" By: Jacob
Currently feeling cold
{ posted by Iammyown.emmcee | 04:30 PM }
Been busy with the Christmas shopping thingi... Now that I have money, caused later on I'll just spend it all in meaningless things. At least now I'm spending it on gifts for others.
Almost Christmas...
Currently listening to "Kailan Kaya" By: Jacob
Currently feeling peaceful
{ posted by Iammyown.emmcee | 09:56 PM }
The candle burns as the pains sets in deeply within the corner of my heart. It’s almost touching the tip of my soul but it’s afraid to go beyond where it lays. I swear this is just the worse to get better. My whole part of me want it to be. I want it all to just lay here and not go any further, not even a slight for it hurts more than I can handle. I want to scream and let it all out but what will that do??? I am here it is here, right here right in front of me a finger length to touch the very center of it all. I want it to go away and leave me in peace but what will that do but make me sadder than I’m already am. Change is in the way at least I hope it is but for now it lingers as the burn of the candle’s fire burns the tip of my finger.
Currently listening to "Till my heartaches end" by: Ella Mae Saison (seems as though someone's listening)
Currently feeling crappy
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